Sometimes your honesty surprises me. I can never be as honest as you.

Exams r over!! Time to relax and take a breather..

It is amazing how people our age fall in love with the night whereas I am totally immune to the syndrome. Jh says I follow the primary school timing of sleeping at 10. Then I told her no in primary school I sleep at 8. Her jaw dropped. Lolll

2012 with the usual hangout gang on the day exams ended was cool. Too bad Juzz couldn't come as he had coaching to do. Although the plot was so rather lame and meaningless since the protagonist was always just 1 step away from death, I still enjoyed it. Maybe it was the company. And the special effects? Haha. The funniest thing was that everyone saw animals (rhinos and giraffes) being transported on the helicopter but throughout the whole movie i couldn't spot a single animal!! Even YS was complimenting me for my wonderful eyesight as he managed to catch the animals too. And the bf was so sweet on that day. Bought me a very special rose to congratulate me for ending exams lol. I think the rose was normal, but the leaves and decorations were quite unique. From "Pocket full of Posies". I like the name. :)

Anw, to all frens who haven't finished their exams, jiayou!! Love you all. :)

4 exams down. 1 left. And the next paper is on next Wed. So sian.. I wish it would just be over tomorrow or something. Can't stand the suspense. And don't think I did well for any of my papers so far. The last paper yesterday I felt so sick I had to go to the washroom to throw up. Not because of the paper but because I was having indigestion carried forward from the previous night. Can you believe it. I spent the first half of the exam trying to hold it in and hence couldn't concentrate on doing the paper. Shucks.

Sometimes I feel people try too hard to be different. They think that they are great just because they've done things people never expect them to do or say things people think are funny and novel. They change their own characters to adopt another personality. One which they try so hard to be 'different' from the mainstream, and then brand themselves as 'special'. Sometimes it really gets on my nerves.


Get a life


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It is so difficult to pen down my thoughts at this moment, because in my head, everything is so jumbled up and confused. I am scared.

Yesterday was dearest's birthday. It was a simple affair.

Happy Belated Birthday my dear.

Happy Birthday SC!! Look forward to celebrating with u tmr. Haha..

Went shopping with UF for her present and we finally settled on this heart pendant necklace from Soo Kee Jewellery. It's quite a unique design as you can wear the heart 3 ways, depending on how you link up the chain. And then we saw this 98.7FM road show going on in vivo where you were supposed to challenge your friend to a song and the winner would get a X-box bag plus a X-box watch while the loser would just get the watch. Super randomly, he wanted to get the prize so both of us went up to sing and guess what we sang...Black Eyed Peas "Don't Phunk With My Heart"!! Like totally omg...that song's more like a rap than a song if you heard it before..And the lyrics are super crappy.

"Girl, you had me, once you kissed me
My love for you is not iffy
I always want you with me I'll play Bobby and you’ll play Whitney
If you smoke, I'll smoke too
That’s how much I'm in love with you
Crazy is what crazy do
Crazy in love, I'm a crazy fool

No, no, no, no, don’t phunk with my heart

Why are you so insecure
When you got passion and love her
You always claimin’ I'm a cheater
Think I'd up and go leave ya
For another señorita
You forgot that I need ya
You must’ve caught amnesia
That’s why you don’t believe

(uh, yeah, check it out) "

A short part of their dumb lyrics which was so hard to follow at that speed. Totally made a fool out of ourselves. Haha..luckily din c anyone we knew there..If not it would be super embarrassing~

Ok enough for now.

**Next wk:
Programming practical exam
simulation automod test
manufacturing logistics assignment deadline
simulation assignment deadline
Proctor & Gamble presentation

Good luck to me~

I am so dead midterm tmr for CS1102C. Someone pls save me. I don't know how to escape from this vicious cycle of programming. (Altho my lab has improved abit..)

i am going home early today to study for once. haven't gone home earlier than 8 b4 ever since school started. bad bad bad.

no more wasting time. bye

I watched "The Ugly Truth" today. It was so hilarious. MUST WATCH (if u haven't already done so). Haha. Random project meeting in school today was a total waste of time. Seems like I went there just to eat lunch. Rarrr. Anyway..the rest of the day totally made up for it.

Random thoughts I am thinking in my head right now: Life is complicated. Over-analysis can lead to total distortion of the mind.


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I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine,
I got a love, and I know that it's all mine.

What is not in my mind does not exist and vice versa.

I can I can I can.
I will I will I will.

School work piles up so fast you don't even know it. One day after another slips past so silently, and suddenly it's just there, a huge pile of it, like a monster that creeps up on you. So damn pissed off. SDP with Procter & Gamble is so challenging. But at least the ppl there working with us are approachable. And the work culture there is so interesting. Will update more when I have time.

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Some nights the thoughts of you make me jerk awake, and I realise how much I've sacrificed. Ok maybe sacrificed is too big a word that just makes me sound so self-less. But I can't find a milder word.
So many things I actually want to pen down but don't know how to start.




Boom Boom Pow

Sudden meeting with trish and vera made me realise how long I haven't actually seen them properly. I was surprised that we could still rmb things each other said like.. 2 years ago? Things that were totally insignificant and unimportant. I guess that's really amazing.. Haha..And I learnt a new thing from Vera! How to use bluetooth to transfer music from my laptop to my phone! (Yes I am a NOOP don't ask me what I'm doing in Industrial & Systems Engineering LOL). But very unfortunately it doesn't seem to be able to transfer pics from my phone to my laptop. Weird.. Anyway the reason why I have resorted to bluetooth is cos there's sth wrong with my USB cable such that everytime I connect it to my com it gets disconnected immediately. Ok nvm.. Just pissed off with LG electronic equipment. And the stupid customer servive centre like NEVER EVER picks up calls. %^&%*^(&^&(^* Ok enough about that.

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P.S. Meeting at Olive Cove yst almost seemed to turn into a heart-to-heart-talk session. LOL

Looking out of the window, the rain made everything seem so unreal. Like I was in another world.


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Wish yourself away

VON

Encyclopedia of jokes??? My goshhh

O week was v fun. But tiring. And I developed heat rash on my legs. But it was worth the while. =)

Oh well school has started. Which is not a good thing. So many things to do, so little time. Ok I should stop procrastinating and get down to work.

So many little happenings dat I wanna blog about but don't have the energy to cos there're too many.

In short, life's good. I have to give it my best shot.


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Money, love and sex make the world go round.

Although my life has not exactly been a bed of roses, I feel that more or less the life I'm leading now is the life that I want to lead. Ok my grades in school may not be fantastic, my family life definitely not desirable, but on the whole, I think I am a happy person. I don't know if I'm delusioned about life, but I think I've reached a point where I feel rather contented. I sound like I've reached like 40 yrs of age and achieved great things lol. Maybe it's just a lack of ambition and drive--> Therefore I think I'm happy to live life like how I live it now because I have no dreams of being someone great, therefore no disappointments for being who I am now. Haha.
Sudden random thoughts because D suddenly told me that he I seem to portray that I am living life to the fullest.

On second thought, why should I go analyse why I am a happy person? I think, therefore I am. And I think I can live with this. Haha.

This is exactly 1 week after my birthday but I still have to blog about it since it was like The 21st. Haha. I must say the surprise did work because I totally had no idea about the party. But I should say the surprise was more like the timing than the party itself cos it was celebrated one wk before my actual birthday. I did enjoy myself very much that night and wanna thank everyone who could make it and for those who couldn't make it it's ok I did receive suspicious videos and microsoft word docs. Hahaha.. Was touched to watch/read them and to receive greetings frm u all tho u all were a million miles away. Most of all I wanna thank Dearest for organising the whole thing for me and making the party happen :) All of the pics are on fb but I shall juz upload a few here..


Somehow being 21 doesn't feel that old to me, though many ppl tell me it is. I still feel as youthful as I did 3 yrs ago. Mayb I still haven't grown up yet cos many ppl tell me I hv to be more mature. Haha..Tis is not a good thing..



growupgrowupgrowup

I guess taking special sem can be harder than u think. Altho it's only 1 module. Cos u keep thinking u hv all the time in the world and therefore keep pushing back studying to do other stuff. Rarr. This is not goooddd.

Cl is a joke. We always talk abt the same old good time topics. Of him being taller and slimmer than me. What a topic to talk abt between a guy and a girl. It started out like that..

Cl: "Ur birthday coming soon right"
Me: "Yea..4th July..Urs also in July right"
Cl:"Yea..14th.."
Me:"Wa u damn old alrdy..23"
Cl:"Wherr got old. Young lor."
Me:"Yea but I younger. Hurhur."
Cl:"Younger. But fatter. And shorter. Haha"
Me:" -_-"

We cannot get over the topic of fats and height. How superficial. Lol..

Tomorrow will be a better day
Tomorrow will be a better day
Tomorrow will be a better day

The more I say it, the more I believe it.

Love is a strange thing. I think I sort of figured out what the hell is wrong with us. It takes two hands to clap and we are both trying hard but somehow it just seems that we keep rubbing each other the wrong way. What's wrong with me is that although I know what seems to please you, I don't really put in effort except occasional random spurts when I feel like it. And what's wrong with you is that you do many, many things for me, but none of them which I appreciate, and in fact quite abhor. Thus, the situation gets worse as you believe I should be appreciating every single damn thing you do when I on the other hand find it more than hard to do so because I rather you not do them at all.

Ok this seems like a rather mechanical and dry analysis of our relationship but that's it for you. Sums up everything just right. At least to me it does.

Most of the time I don;t think about it, mainly because I don't have the time to. And I am not exactly someone you would call introspective. But when I do think about it, it wears me down tremendously and makes me lose the will to continue trying. If only trying could make things better. But it seems like the more you try, the higher hopes and expectations you have. And when all these efforts eventually come to naut, you just feel like locking yourself up in a room and find your face streaked with tears for absolutely no reason at all.

What happens when there's a SUPER BIG BITCH in your office.

%^%&%^&^

Super damn pissed off.

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Rarr. Anyway I'll be doing special sem starting next week. Introduction to Psychology. Hopefully I do well for this module.

And looking forward to chalet next wk!=)

I am amused at lion and E. So glad to meetup with them. Anyway talking about bimbos, E is a bigggggg one. She was like squealing at every single thing vaguely pink and she even brought all her great shopping deals to show me when we met. What can I say. She is just so girly, too girly that it overwhelms me sometimes. Haha..Her hp itself is a killer. Check it out..

Anywayz.. here r some random pics of our first double date! We were at first hesitant abt the idea cos thot that lion and wy would be damn hostile to each other..but in the end decided that they should be able to click since they are both chi-nah. Hurhur

Random pics of our double date..

Our very similar flower rings =)


Oh and btw I cut my hair. It's damn short now (as can be seen from above pics). Think Juzz will laugh like crazy when he sees me on tues. Ahahaha.

I M SUPER IRRITATED AT HAVING LOST MY I-POD.

I-POD PLEASE COME BACK TO ME!

You really make me wonder what love is all about. Because I wish you would stop all your antics and lame gestures, claiming you love me when love to you is after all just those few moments where when you feel like it, you give me the remnants of whatever love you have left, just for the moment, before everything returns back to zero, leaving us both dry, hollow and wanting.



Ooh I juz made a facial mask for the bf..lol..random.. tho i dun do it for myself. C I am so nice. Haha..

P.S. I miss E. We wanna meet up but our schedules clash like crazy. Saddd

EXAMS R FINALLY OVER!!! This is by far my most well done semester I believe. =))

Had fun yst. We sat and talked and talked for what seemed like forever. What I realised about the 5 of us is that we never ever run out of topics to talk about. And topics can change as fast as 3 in ten seconds. LOL

Time to relax.

2 more days left to my last paper. And then exams will be over!!

My gosh. I can't wait for Saturday!! And then it's shopping with my dear JH after paper=)

I m amused. There is this block of condos near my house called "Ethan Court". Everytime I walk past it I think of him (JH's bf = Ethan). LOL

(STABLE OR WILD) Random blabbering

I wanna go to a pub after exams alone. Just for one night. And drink and drink and drink. Till morning comes and I find myself sober and in pain. All my friends tell me I'm crazy. Haha..

So happy for sc and U-fong. They finally got tgt. =)

This makes 1 more friend attached to the boyfriend's friend. Haha.

I know exams are coming..But I can't help this 'wastage of precious time' here blogging..becos I have so much on my chest.

This is really not the time. Why does my heart feel so heavy. I feel so confused. At times when I see you, I am even unsure if whether what I feel is love or just a sense of familiarity. But I do know that whenever I want to say something which I know will hurt you, I just can't bear to say it because I don't want to see you sad. But not saying it and keeping it inside me is really eating me slowly. Is that love? To want to protect you from this pain I am feeling. Or is that something I would feel towards everyone else and anyone else.

I wish I had all the answers.

On a side note, I went to Juzz's house a few days ago to take a video for our proj. However it turned out that we din even make the video at all bcos all the cue cards couldn't fit into the screen. And we bought 'sad face' and 'ok sign' chops for nothing. So we ended chopping each other's hands and feet instead. How funny is that. Anywayz..the presentation ended up well. I am full of hope for this module actually=)

As for the mahjong table proj, we were initially full of hopes for it until we realised that the manufacturer hadn't followed ANY of our specifications and the table top ended up being so thick and heavy (approx 100 kg) which was totally ridiculous and the legs as expected couldn't take the weight and split into 2. So we had to present to TKC without the prototype in the end as it was all too late to do anything. But still, I think he knew it wasn't our fault and hence yar.. maybe everything wasn't so bad after all.


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Listening to sad songs now makes me feel very sad

Look at the balloon I bought for QN. Haha. I know it looks girly..but that's the whole point...LOL

The stuff in the first pic sc and yh bought tgt are far worse...

Anywayz..hope u had an enjoyable birthday!

Above^^ Mr Justin Tan Weizheng who hates to be caught on cam. Hahaha..

The deep dark secrets of him , me and sc.

Random camwhoring during project times..

Lalala~~ exams..I wish you don't ever come

WHY IS EVERYDAY DOING PROJECT DAY.

I got abit pissed at Juzz just now cos i was bathing when he called me. Den when he called me again he was like "EHh why just now I called u u nv pickup?" I told him I was bathing den he was like "for so long??" Like wth. I think I am just irritable nw. Usually my tolerance for good friends is much higher. Hah.

How great if life were only happiness and no sadness. Wouldn't it be nice. Ok I don't hate life, but I don't love it either. Sometimes I feel that even if my life were to end today, I wouldn't feel anything.

randommm

wise old man.

Will someone allow me to buy more time. Plssss

Von told me M has been diagnosed with leukemia. I can't go visit him cos he's gg thru chemo now. Why why why

Oh well. I wish I had the time to do so many things...

Birthdays birthdays and more birthdays.. It makes me paranoid that I might forget someone's birthday and then feel bad about it..

I'm looking forward to gg to Dear's drum concert this wkend and c him perform. Think he looks quite cool while playing drums. =)

Nywayz..I just stumbled upon an astonishing discovery 2 days ago..frederick is actually 28 yrs old!! All along I thought he was 23..like all other normal guys in yr 2 after army. Seriously I wouldn't even hv suspected it if he didn't tell me himself. Must ask him his secret to maintaining his looks. It's like quite shocking for someone u know for so long to suddenly tell u this. Haha...Den i told him.."oh no wonder you have lao3 ren2 chi1 dai1 zhen4." Cos he keeps forgetting stuff nowadays. LOL.. Just in case you thought he was dumb and took mayb 8 yrs for primary sch and 6 for secondary..it's not the case. He's now on SAF scholarship cos he's taking a break frm flying planes..He shld just hurry up and marry his lawyer gf so I can attend his wedding! =) (Suddenly I feel that getting married is the next most exciting thing to do in life you see) Think they'll be leading the super glamorous lifestyle since they both are like high income earners.. So envious=P

Haiz ok I shall go back to preparing for sit-in lab tmr..

I want you to be proud of me.

Somehow being close to you feels so good.

Omg..this is the first occasion he actually wrote me a note without me hinting!! Hahha...means it comes from his heart..

Anywayyy, I feel finding interesting to stuff to do on special occasions such as Valentine's is becoming increasingly challenging. We didn't do anything out of the ordinary, in fact it was so totally ordinary..But I dun mind..As in I don't really care what we do as long as I'm with him. Unless I have something in mind that I'm dying to do that is. Sounds damn cliche but what to do..it's so true..

We actually got so tired of thinking what to buy each other that we decided to just go choose our presents on the day itself.. Then it wouldn't be so mind-boggling. Haha. So in the end he got me this Guess bag (I chose) and huge double-heart shape cushiony thingy (he bought b4 we met). I got him a black striped crumpler. =))

The Note:

I love the time when we watch movies together.

I love the time when we have lunch in school and act as though we own this world.

I love the time when you snuggle into my arms in the middle of the night and sleep.

I love the time after we quarrel cause we'll love each other more after everything.

I love the time when you get drunk and say you love me while hugging me.

I love the time when I watch you sleep peacefully on my bed.

I love the time when you come over to my house and we spend the whole day together.

In short, I love the time when you are by my side, every moment of it.

In shorter, I love being with you all my life.

In shortest, I LOVE YOU. =)))

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Angeline's 21st birthday was last sat..We bought her this book on marine life that cost abt 80+ bucks frm National Geographic at vivocity. Haha..One of the most intellectual presents I have eever bought, because she loves diving to c interesting creatures down below. Haha.. The dress code for her party was polo tee.. I didn't have many so just wore like one of the better of the 2 I had. Bleak. But anywayz it was fun! =)

Oh and yst finally met up with vonnie and jn and xf for Blast Concert! I must say that von's dancing is getting better and better by the day. Watching you perform made me feel so glad you get to fulfill ur passion in life my dear girl. You rock!

Ok nywayz now it's back to school...

It is drizzling outside now. I feel like the world is closing in on me.

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I wonder what to get for Ag's 21st. She said she wants something from National Geographic. I don't even have the faintest clue what anyone could possibly want from there. A book? Or perhaps some remote remains of fossil that had been buried underground for the last ten million yrs. Oh well.

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Yst we had a big fight. Over sth so totally insignificant I can't believe it snowballed into that. He apologised and there was nth much left for me to do but to forgive and move on.



And there those few grains of rice remained. Untouched.

The first day of Cny wasn't as bad as I expected it to be. Meeting up and chatting with distant relatives actually seemed a tad bit enjoyable, probably because everyone made an effort to do so. It's the first time my parents aren't here for cny..but they asked me to go follow my uncle around to do visits. So I was at my uncle's hse even when the other side of their relatives came (totally unrelated to me) cos I had to wait for them to be driven ard to visit other relatives. My cousin (uncle's son) kept announcing to everyone I was his new sister cos it seemed like I had switched famililes lol. Reunion dinner the night b4 with dear's family was also a happy occasion.

But today I got soooo mad at him for being stoopid. He is always so dumb. I shall not elaborate more. All I can say is that guys are dumb. NO EQ WHATSOEVER. Full stop. Hmph.

Right here I must rant on how I almost missed watching Cinderella totally, which was one of the greatest things I looked forward to last week. Firstly, I ASSUMED that the show was at 7:30 pm without even looking at the tix which until now I still cannot understand why. So I was merrily hanging out with yt and hl at Bugis for quite some time till abt..4 plus? Ok and then I slowly made my way home and reached home at around 6. Then, something struck me and I decided to check what time the show really was (written on the tix). At that moment, I was still damn sure that the show wld start at 7:30pm. But guess wat? I took a look at the tix and it read "Show time: 3pm"!! I almost died of heart attack. So I called dear and told him the bleak situation. In the end, we decided to go to Sistic and Esplenade and ask them if they could swap our tickets for another show because we really didn't get to use them at all due to my unpardonable folly. By the time I met him, it was 7:30pm. We were supposed to eat dinner first but decided that gg to exchange the tickets were more important than our stomachs which was why we strolled over to the Esplenade first. As we were walking thru the path somewhere remotely inside the Esplenade, I heard the announcement saying sth abt pple watching the 8pm Cinderella show to hurry up inside the theatre because they were gg to start soon. So I thought since there was actually a show showing then, we might as well pretend we din know the tix were meant for the 3pm show and just try to enter hoping the person tearing the tickets would not find out. As it turned out, she really did NOT check the time and just tore the tickets and let us in. So we happily rushed in to watch the show. But the sad part was the usher just outside did realise our tix were for the 3pm show when she looked at our tix to show us to our seats, so being the bitch she is (you just can tell frm her face), she kicked up a big fuss and eventually involved the management. But they , unlike her, did realise we were not reusing tix to watch the show twice since the person downstairs did rmb tearing our tix just a moment ago, and that we just mixed up the show-times. So since it wasn't full house, they gave us 2 seats and we managed to watch the show in the end! End of story.. Haha..

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks, now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out, I'll be giving it my bestest
And nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours
Well open up your mind and see like me
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment people, dance and sing with me
We're just one big family
And it's our God-forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved loved

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm sure
There's no need to complicate, our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
D-d-do do you, but do you, d-d-do
But do you want to come on
Scooch on over closer dear
And I will nibble your ear

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and I laughed
I guess what I be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanities and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do, our name is our virtue

But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours
Come on and open up your mind and see like me (I won't hesitate)
Open up your plans and damn you're free(No more, no more)
Look into your heart and you'll find that the sky is yours(It cannot wait, I'm sure)
So please don't, there's no need(There's no need to complicate)
There's no need to complicate(Our time is short)
'Cause our time is short(This is our fate)
This is, this is, this is our fate
I'm yoursOh, I'm yours
Oh, I'm yours
Oh, whoa, baby you believe I'm yours
You best believe, best believe I'm yours

Jason Marz
I'm Yours

Rarr. My parents are going overseas tmr morning. Joy! Only cos this is the first time I will have the whole house to myself for 2.5 wks. More peace for me now =)) Perhaps I will miss them after they're gone. Like after 1 wk..lols

Random phototaking during lecture breaks..

Meal with Prof Poh and Yh! Quite long ago. Just happened to find it in my phone while uploading. As u can c..my hair is straight..plus short. Haha.

One of the photos I like of us.. =))

Tell me who in the world goes to Genting to gamble. I didn't know Genting was famous for gambling. All along I thought it was known for those little buggy car rides. Las Vegas seems like a better place to gamble. Haha. C goes there often to gamble, I just learnt on fri. Den I asked him, "Ur parents allow you to gamble??" Guess what he replied.. " I go there with my father." I was like -_-...

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It felt weird talking to Qn abt relationships, probably becos it isn't something you would usually discuss with a guy. He asked me to guess who he was the closest to in ISE. Den I said I really don't know. And his answer was "I thought I'm the closest to you?" , which in a way really surprised me. I always regarded him as a close friend, but didn't know we were that close. Well, I suppose now I know. It's not that I don't feel the same way, just that perhaps it was something I was only subconsciously aware of rather than consciously. I'll be sad when he goes overseas for SEP. Luckily it's not anytime soon, ard a yr's time.

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Sch starts tmr. And I think I look forward to it slightly more than I did last semester. Because the modules look more interesting, probably less technical. But I shldn't get my hopes too high, there might not be that much of a difference after all (I will realise after attending a few lectures). I must be more hardworking this sem.

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Right now, right here, I am really thankful that I have you. Sometimes I think if I didn't have a boyfriend, I wouldn't still be here. Not in the sense that I must have a boyfriend because I can't stand being unattached, afraid of what others would think. It's more of like a listening ear, even though you don't always say the right things, or play the right part, I know you still love me no matter what. Being attached perhaps makes me feel that my existence does bring happiness and meaning into someone else's life, like I'm living not only for my own happiness. Of course I'm not denying that people live their lives for themselves mainly and I am no different. But still, somehow, I feel I need to go on because someone out there needs me and wants me to.

I wonder if it's what I'm suffering from that causes these bouts of sadness and wistfulness. Deep down, I hope it is. And perhaps, there may never be a cure.

I AM SOO BOREDDD...

1:37: (Calls the bf to chat)..
2:15: Bf wants to go to sleep..
2:16-5:14: Suspiciously manages to pass away time
5:15: Sees bf online (Knows he is there but not really there cos his status is busy = playing dota)
5:16: Opens a conversation box and types sth random to him
5:17: No reply
5:18: Smses him to tell him I am talking to him online and to order him to stop playing dota
5:19: Receives a reply on msn containing 3 WORDS "Wad a joke"
5:20: He goes back to playing dota. Asks me to call him at 7

Conclusion: I am such a LOSER..
Haha

Dunno how come I am so bored altho this is the only day of the week I am spending the whole day at home. Zzz.

Speaking abt loserism, it brings me to talk abt miss yueting's birthday. Where I organised a game which was another thing to add to my list of flops in life. Hurhur.

I am bleak.

On a brighter note, I am looking forward to see C tmr! And Qn. =)

It stuns me how much time I'm going to be spending with Jh next sem.

This semester I must aim at least to get an average of Bs for everything. If not I will really feel v useless. Can I say how much I really wish to be over and done with my degree, so much more than others. It amazes me how qn thinks it is cool to study till phd and if there were higher degrees he would rather go for it than work. Ok I'm not saying my dream is to enter the workforce right now, but still, maybe I would have been better off in arts & social sciences. It wouldn't be that much of a struggle, but there would be tons of readings. I feel like such a couch potato. Randommm.

I have this urge to call C up and whine. He has a really high level of tolerance for whinings.