Haiz...prob exam yesterday was total crap..I only wish I could pass..Please just let me pass..Haha..

I haven't been attending lectures for it since lecture 2 and I have not done a single one of the 10 tutorials for this module. But I've been studying really hard for it these 5 days and I still think there's this glimmer of hope that I can pass. I have to thank Justin for all his help man. The past few days would have been torture for me if I had to plough thru all the notes on my own steam. On Tuesday we were like sitting at 5 star hainanese chicken rice near our house (he stays really close to me) and studying prob. We just bought a plate of chicken rice and sat there for 6 hrs literally before shifting to Astons to have dinner. Haha...First time I ever studied at a chicken rice place..But there was air-con and everything so it was ok. Luckily it was quite empty except for a few customers occasionally.

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Last night was strange. It seemed like I felt our love was somewhat dying. and that I could never love you as much as I did when we first got together. As if I had to convince myself that I still loved you. And the feeling wasn't good. I don't know whether it's just that we've come to some point in our relationship where we behave like a married couple who has been married for the past 40 yrs and it's just become like "oh I've become so used to you, but do I really still love you? I don't know." Hmm..maybe it's just a passing phase.. or maybe I'm expecting too much.. and I suppose you can't feel a sense of novelty all the time.

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3 more papers!