Haiz...prob exam yesterday was total crap..I only wish I could pass..Please just let me pass..Haha..

I haven't been attending lectures for it since lecture 2 and I have not done a single one of the 10 tutorials for this module. But I've been studying really hard for it these 5 days and I still think there's this glimmer of hope that I can pass. I have to thank Justin for all his help man. The past few days would have been torture for me if I had to plough thru all the notes on my own steam. On Tuesday we were like sitting at 5 star hainanese chicken rice near our house (he stays really close to me) and studying prob. We just bought a plate of chicken rice and sat there for 6 hrs literally before shifting to Astons to have dinner. Haha...First time I ever studied at a chicken rice place..But there was air-con and everything so it was ok. Luckily it was quite empty except for a few customers occasionally.

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Last night was strange. It seemed like I felt our love was somewhat dying. and that I could never love you as much as I did when we first got together. As if I had to convince myself that I still loved you. And the feeling wasn't good. I don't know whether it's just that we've come to some point in our relationship where we behave like a married couple who has been married for the past 40 yrs and it's just become like "oh I've become so used to you, but do I really still love you? I don't know." Hmm..maybe it's just a passing phase.. or maybe I'm expecting too much.. and I suppose you can't feel a sense of novelty all the time.

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3 more papers!

My tutee has finally finished his A Levels, and my job of tutoring him thus ends here. I really really hope he does well, like at least get an A or B, if not I woull feel that I let his parents down. They're really nice people, because everytime I go there they will pamper me with dinner and stuff, even though I don't really deserve it. Haha. Ohh and his mum gave me a bottle of perfume as a 'farewell present'. Think it looks really sweet. It has this really fruity, feminine smell. And it's french.

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I just realised my friend Karen just got married recently. I didn't know she would get married so soon, like just 1 yr after graduation. Came as quite a shock to me. I saw pictures of her on msn wearing a long white dress and carrying a bouquet of red roses by the seaside with her bf, but I didn't know that was for their wedding, thought it was just some special occasion. Only until I saw her nick "Hubby's down with flu =(" then did I realised she was actually married. Haha. Stupid me. Why else would she be wearing a wedding gown at the beach if not to take wedding photos!

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OMG exams are once again coming and I am really unprepared. Pls some one, save me from CS practical next weekkk!!

OMG I just found out YH has a crush on qn.... and she didn't tell me till now. Haha..I must keep my distance from him so that she'll have more opportunities to get close to him..Since he is like my best guy friend in engine apart from wy..Haha. Still find it amusing till this very minute. The whole issue of crushes sound so secondary school.

Projects are killing me. Think will be staying in school tmr till quite late because the deadline for 2110 proj is on tues and guess what? We've barely started working on it. I secretly hope qn will help me do my part because he said as long as I do the assignment, he will take care of the proj. Haha..I know I sound evil but really, there's no time for me to do anything.

Hmm...C and I were talking about joining pool next sem..just to relax and have fun. Sometimes I do look back and miss the times where we were so close before I got attached. It seems like we both kept a distance ever since then, but recently we've been talking quite alot and he's one of those people I feel like I need to keep in contact with, because we once shared this bond that was special, not in the romantic kind of way, but still, a very special one. We were so close that wy thought I liked him for a moment (before we got tgt of course). I think he makes me believe this world is full of happiness and optimism, because that's just the way he is. Ok I don't really know how to put it into words well, but you'll just feel it when you get to know him. =) Oh and I once told my ISE frens that I found him and cute, in the boy boy kind of way.



P.S. I feel bad that the whole world has been helping me do my cs labs that now I have totally no idea what's gg on and PE is just in 2 wks time!