Reading her blog about him (singing his praises) makes me wonder if I was wrong then to have let it pass and wondering how things would be like if I hadn't. But then, I am happy about where I am now.

Don't look back.

I've been amusing myself lately with this book "How to be a Complete & Utter Failure in life, work and everything. 39.5 steps to lasting underachievement." My uncle gave it to me. It's suppose to work reverse psychology. Hah.

Nyways, I dunno why these few days I feel like super tired. Even if I don't go out or just go out for a few hours, I seem to be lifeless and listless.

Meeting up with YS was as crazy as usual. We both make each other laugh hysterically whenever we meet. Think we are just a crazy pair.

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On a side note, I think those balls of new year wishes floating around on the Singapore River have totally destroyed whatever the scenery had to offer. Now everything just looks clustered and polluted. Qn, Yh and I were sitting there taking in the sights and enjoying the wind after eating at Changing Appetites at Marina Sq. Seems like everytime I go there, I always end up at the same restaurant. Random.

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Yesterday I finally met the creatures! Like after so damn long. We met at Xf's house. Xf has a very, very, very cute dog!! A 3 months old golden retriever which is hyper active. It kept pouncing on me to play. Think I've fallen in love with it. Her name is Helen.

Jiani is flying off for exchange to Georgia Tech tmr at 4am!! Sigh..will miss her.. Oh and von is still the same. Still gushing over Ling Jun Jie until now. And she said that dear looks like him. So the rest were convinced that she was trying to snatch him away from me. Hahaha. I'm very entertained. Ok I shall now upload some pictures..

SEP results are out. Qn got into university of Waterloo! Though not his first choice, but at least it's better than nth. Haha. I think I might apply for summer studies though, depending on whether I can get to the place of my choice.

Sentosa was fun. Not exactly as fun as it would have been overseas, but I guess it's the company that matters. =)) Shall post pictures next time.

Tmr I am finally meeting up with Miss Yoke, after one million yrs!! Haha. And we're both waiting for the same miracle to happen. *crosses fingers*

And then mon, it's supper with wj. Din know his birthday was coming till he had to hint to me. Haha. So thick-skinned. But then again, I don't know why I keep forgetting every yr! Vicious cycle of history repeating itself.

Tuesday will be my death day. Results are coming out. I hope I will pass programming. Please, please, please, just let me pass. It's one of my christmas wishes this yr. The same day is dear's mum's birthday. Think he will be in the mood to celebrate cos he will surely do well as usual. Then I will look so pathetic if I did badly. Bleahh. Haha. I shall just hope for the best I guess.

Oh ya my mum just told me my dad and her will be away from 15 Jan to 2 Feb holidaying in Australia and New Zealand. I can't go cos school will have started by then. Means I will have the whole house to myself! Dear says he can come accompany me and stayover at my house for once cos it's always been me staying over at his house only. My mum says we can use the cars too! Means we can drive to sch. Yayy. And she bought us tix to the musical Cinderella at esplenade. Haha. Good seats tooo. Yayy I am so happy. I always get happy for the smallest things in life. Lol.

Ok time to meetup with cousin. Tired! Will come home to nap.

One week of holidays has passed so quickly that I feel school is going to start soon in no time again. Juzz finished his exams only on Thurs, therefore our outing was postponed only to Thurs lunch, right after his exams ended. We had lunch at Marche and chatted for awhile before they proceeded to watch a movie (I didn't because I had to leave early to watch another movie ironically). But I did enjoy the short time we spent together because we seldom get to hang out with everyone present. Usually there will always be one or two missing pple haha.

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On the other hand, I am quite disappointed because I can't go to Bali anymore! His parents feel that it is too dangerous to travel at this point in time because of lurking bombs about to explode everywhere. So, we settled for Sentosa instead. But at least it's like a resort (Siloso Beach resort). We didn't know whether to choose the Deluxe rooms or the Roof Garden Suite, but in the end we chose the roof garden suite, cos it sounded more romantic though more expensive.

This is the online description..

"Rooms with Sea view, located at level 8 and each suite features a private stairway leading to an open air private roof top garden including bathtub with jacuzzi where you can rejuvenate and enjoy the magnificent view of the sea and the tropics.
Roof terrace has 2 deck chairs for sun tanning and an open air outdoor bathtub with jacuzzi. Room Size: double story in total of 60 Square meter
*Our Roof Garden Suites are suitable for Couples and Honeymooners. Due to the unique room design, additional beds are not available for the suites."

Hmm.. although it won't be the same as going overseas, at least it's something. And we get free tix to tour Sentosa for 2 days. I think maybe I'll just laze around at the beach or sth. Too lazy to walk all ard Sentosa Haha.

Haiz...prob exam yesterday was total crap..I only wish I could pass..Please just let me pass..Haha..

I haven't been attending lectures for it since lecture 2 and I have not done a single one of the 10 tutorials for this module. But I've been studying really hard for it these 5 days and I still think there's this glimmer of hope that I can pass. I have to thank Justin for all his help man. The past few days would have been torture for me if I had to plough thru all the notes on my own steam. On Tuesday we were like sitting at 5 star hainanese chicken rice near our house (he stays really close to me) and studying prob. We just bought a plate of chicken rice and sat there for 6 hrs literally before shifting to Astons to have dinner. Haha...First time I ever studied at a chicken rice place..But there was air-con and everything so it was ok. Luckily it was quite empty except for a few customers occasionally.

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Last night was strange. It seemed like I felt our love was somewhat dying. and that I could never love you as much as I did when we first got together. As if I had to convince myself that I still loved you. And the feeling wasn't good. I don't know whether it's just that we've come to some point in our relationship where we behave like a married couple who has been married for the past 40 yrs and it's just become like "oh I've become so used to you, but do I really still love you? I don't know." Hmm..maybe it's just a passing phase.. or maybe I'm expecting too much.. and I suppose you can't feel a sense of novelty all the time.

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3 more papers!

My tutee has finally finished his A Levels, and my job of tutoring him thus ends here. I really really hope he does well, like at least get an A or B, if not I woull feel that I let his parents down. They're really nice people, because everytime I go there they will pamper me with dinner and stuff, even though I don't really deserve it. Haha. Ohh and his mum gave me a bottle of perfume as a 'farewell present'. Think it looks really sweet. It has this really fruity, feminine smell. And it's french.

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I just realised my friend Karen just got married recently. I didn't know she would get married so soon, like just 1 yr after graduation. Came as quite a shock to me. I saw pictures of her on msn wearing a long white dress and carrying a bouquet of red roses by the seaside with her bf, but I didn't know that was for their wedding, thought it was just some special occasion. Only until I saw her nick "Hubby's down with flu =(" then did I realised she was actually married. Haha. Stupid me. Why else would she be wearing a wedding gown at the beach if not to take wedding photos!

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OMG exams are once again coming and I am really unprepared. Pls some one, save me from CS practical next weekkk!!

OMG I just found out YH has a crush on qn.... and she didn't tell me till now. Haha..I must keep my distance from him so that she'll have more opportunities to get close to him..Since he is like my best guy friend in engine apart from wy..Haha. Still find it amusing till this very minute. The whole issue of crushes sound so secondary school.

Projects are killing me. Think will be staying in school tmr till quite late because the deadline for 2110 proj is on tues and guess what? We've barely started working on it. I secretly hope qn will help me do my part because he said as long as I do the assignment, he will take care of the proj. Haha..I know I sound evil but really, there's no time for me to do anything.

Hmm...C and I were talking about joining pool next sem..just to relax and have fun. Sometimes I do look back and miss the times where we were so close before I got attached. It seems like we both kept a distance ever since then, but recently we've been talking quite alot and he's one of those people I feel like I need to keep in contact with, because we once shared this bond that was special, not in the romantic kind of way, but still, a very special one. We were so close that wy thought I liked him for a moment (before we got tgt of course). I think he makes me believe this world is full of happiness and optimism, because that's just the way he is. Ok I don't really know how to put it into words well, but you'll just feel it when you get to know him. =) Oh and I once told my ISE frens that I found him and cute, in the boy boy kind of way.



P.S. I feel bad that the whole world has been helping me do my cs labs that now I have totally no idea what's gg on and PE is just in 2 wks time!

HAPPY 1st year, 12 mths, 365 days!
That was yesterday though. Hehe.

We had a very nice time. Because he knew I would be stopping at the 96 bus stop to come to school, he waited there and surprised me with a bouquet of 12 roses to represent 12 mths. It was quite funny because I had to carry the bouquet everywhere, meaning lectures & tutorials. Can't believe how many of my frens were laughing at me, esp YH, RZ and YS. They thought he was going to propose. zzzz.

He also got us couple necklaces in the design which i said was nice 2 mths ago with our names on it. Actually I kind of expected it but just pretended to be pleasantly surprised. Haha. =)) Now everyday I have 2 rings and 1 necklace which are compulsory to wear. 1 ring and necklace frm him, another identity ring of the creatures! Rarrr.

And the last thing was a jigsaw puzzle with the frame. But I had to piece it up myself. It was a msg from him plus a photo of us. I managed to piece it up in like..2 1/2 hrs? Hmm.. Dunno whether it's considered long or short. Lol.

The things I got him were rather normal. This kind of like funky belt with a gun on it, a formal turquoise long-sleeve striped collared shirt and a hot-air balloon with 2 soft toys + a scroll (my message to him) inside. Think the most creative thing was the hot-air balloon. What to do..I am so not the creative type.

Anyway, we kept it simple because we had school and everything. But he drove, so we went to ECP first, just for memory's sake, where he first asked me to be his girlfriend. Haha. After that we went to Chijmes for dinner. We decided that the day would be more of an exchanging-present day, and then we would go overseas to celebrate properly during the hols. Yayy. Although didn't do much yst, but I still feel so loved, satisfied and pleased. Haha.

Him with roses on the floor. Like he just got rejected! LOL.

Hot-air balloon! Dinner & our couple necklaces~

Chijmes
Chijmes again

I hate this. So many things, so little time. Incompetance is the word..

Sometimes I think I shldn't have stepped into the Uni, but then I wouldn't have made all the friends I have now and we wouldn't have so many wonderful memories.

I find it funny that C always has to report to me whenever he sees dear and vice versa. It's almost as if they're secretly spying on each other lol.

I am freaking out. I seriously have no idea what to get for first yr. Everything seems too normal to buy. Yelpp. And he seems to have everything planned. I asked him and he said he knows wat to buy and where to get the items alrdy. And he asked me not to be late for lecture on that day if not it would be very weird. Sounds suspicious.. Haha..Anyhow, I have 9 more days to get everything done.

Ok I shall get back to my studies. Tests, tests & more tests!

“What is it? My dear?”
“Ah, how can we bear it?”
“Bear what?”
“This. For so short a time. How can we sleep this time away?”
“We can be quiet together, and pretend -- since it is only the beginning -- that we have all the time in the world.”
“And every day we shall have less. And then none.”
“Would you rather, therefore, have had nothing at all?”
“No. This is where I have always been coming to. Since my time began. And when I go away from here, this will be the mid-point, to which everything ran, before, and from which everything will run. But now, my love, we are here, we are now, and those other times are running elsewhere.”


- -A.S. Byatt, Possession

Yesterday I went to dear's cousin's wedding. It makes me want to get married. YH keeps saying that I behave like I'm married.. like in what way?? OMG. I told that to dear and he was like..ya we're almost married what. OMGGG. If he takes it like we're almost married isn't it to my disadvantage?? Means next time he won't have to propose. So sad. Haha. During the banquet he asked me "Why you look so dazed? Are you thinking about our own wedding?" Secretly I was although I didn't really admit it. But not now, still have many other things to accomplish first. Like completing my damn engineering degree, getting my driving license, attempting to become more virtuous and so on. Oh yes I must add that his parents are OBSESSED with kids, esp his dad. They carry other peoples' children all over the place till their parents come hunting for them. Lol. Dear and I concluded that if we ever had one and were staying with his parents, they would secretly come to our rooom and steal him/her from us every night. Haha. What an amusing thought. But I wouldn't really mind since his parents are such nice people. His dad told me that he treats me as nothing less than his daughter. I was so touchedd. =))

On a more serious note, I should really start some serious mugging. Thinking about the mountain of work I have to complete makes me sick. All the assignments, projects, deadlines. Just kill me. ARGH. And I still have a chalet and other stuff to attend. Ohh yes the creatures just bought an identity ring for the 6 of us! Haha how cool. But I haven't seen it yet. Gg to see it soon next wk when I meet up with vonnie. Haven't seen her in a darn long time. Hmmm..

Ok I shall go back to my mountain of work now..

I have just started a new blog!

Courtesy of Miss Low Yue Ting =))